We May Face Battles, But We Don't Have to Be Afraid

 Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. 7 Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don’t be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows. ~ Luke 12:6-7


I woke up this morning feeling a little lost and unsure. I was concerned about medical issues.  My mind battled between wanting a definite answers to the causes of my symptoms and acceptance of the answers I have been given.  I also continuue to strive in simply trusting God even as He chooses not to reveal the answers I seek or give me a answer that I was not expecting.

God being the great God that He is provided me with the passage of scripture. It brought comfort to my soul but I had no idea the degree to which this word would be manifested in my life today.

On my way to work I began to become sick.  I tried the usual measures to calm my body down, but it was not listening.  So I enter my office without my usual chipper greeting.  People asked how I was doing.  I did not try to mask it.  I had no energy for that.  I simply stated that it was not a good day.

I went to my cubicle and tried to center myself.  The tears in my eyes are welling up so I go to the bathroom so that ohers could not see or hear me.  I did not want to make a scene.  I did not want to be a "drama queen".   I take deep breaths and do my best to push down the emotions and the pain.  I was not sucessful.  

A colleague saw me and gave me a hug and the flood gates opened.  I sobbed and shared the emotional toil of dealing with my health takes on my body.  A few others heard me and came to see if every thing was okay.  I apologized for crying as if crying is a sign of weakness.  These angels brushed that off and told me that they cared about me.

I went back into the bathroom humbled and in the midst of my tears I began to pray in the spirit and then I praised Him.  For in my despair and in the midst of it all the word of God shine brightly.   I see you.  I know every strand of hair on your head.  Do not be afraid.  I love you and you are valued by me. 

I don't know what you may be going through but please know that God loves you beyond anything that you can think or imagine .  You are precious and valuable.