not giving up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but encouraging one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. ~Hebrews 10:25
Today's blog is a big ouch for me as I am convicted of this very thing. I am a believer who loves the Lord and His people, but I find myself avoiding the attendance of church. I have my reasons, but God is clear, we are to meet up and assemble. We do this to encourage one another. I know this to be true because when I do go I am encouraged by seeing my sisters in Christ worship the Lord. The sweet aroma of Jesus is all around and it nourishes my soul.
I know this to be true, yet I still have little desire outside my want to please God to go. While I am actively involved in ministries at my church, something is missing. There is a disconnect. I love the Lord and I know that He is good. I watch sermons from other pastors. Guess what they talk about the assembling of the saints too. So I know God is talking to me. Yet I stay stubborn. What does this say about me? My mind can go down a rabbit hole, but I know that I am loved by God. He is working on my heart and my mind. He's not letting me get comfortable with this sin.
Why am I sharing a dark corner of my soul? I am sharing it because I need to walk in the light of God's truth. I need to expose it so I can come to a point or repentance. I want to be with like minded hearts so that I can be strengthened in the battle.
Lord, I know better, yet week after week I fail. I know its only hurting me so I pray for forgiveness. Help me to not isolate, but rather insulate myself with my fellow brother's and sisters. Help me to honor Your word. In Jesus name. Amen
Jennifer, I struggle with this as well. After the pandemic, I have found myself struggling to go in person. I watch the sermon every Sunday and was able to make it Easter. But before then it was Christmas. While I do know some of it is agoraphobia, i know there is nothing to fear when going, that God wants me there and loves me. I’m working on my fears and will be praying that you will be able to attend more Sundays in person to fellowship with your sisters and brothers in Christ. We always feel better once we do, it’s just the doing part we got to get to. 💕
ReplyDeleteThank you for sharing your story with me and providing me with encouragement. Prayers lifted for both of us.
DeleteConfession is really good for our souls! Thank you for being so transparent. We sure love seeing you in person when you do come. And thank you for your unwavering commitment to work in the ministry, your gift is treasured!! Love you sis!
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DeleteJust a thought...if you are going to please God, why do you need more? Maybe let that be enough. I get busy in my church activities and it sometimes feels a little mechanical, but I confidently know that somehow He is using me, without my understanding, and so I will honor Him in being present for my sisters (and brothers) in Christ.
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