Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.~Matthew 5:3
This morning I struggled to find that place of peace. I struggled to enter into the presence of the Lord. I always begin my quiet time with prayer, but the words felt forced and rehearsed. I felt like I was only speaking to myself. I knew what I could say, but a routine prayer would not do. I wanted more. I needed to feel Him, to be connected.
I closed my eyes and stilled myself. I asked God for forgiveness. I asked Him not to take His Spirit away from me. I asked Him to remove anything that is blocking my communication with Him. I asked Him for a fresh anointing so that I might have the power and strength to do the things He asks if me; to turn away from those things that would hinder me.
I then began to recite the Lord's Prayer. I was pushing my way through to Jesus. I needed to go deeper. Reading His word without Him would do me no good.
I then began to condemn myself, and He stopped me before the words could be formed and the thought could be finished. God let me know right then and there that He was listening. He told me this: humility is not condemnation. Humility does not mean I am worthless. Humility means I am surrendered. I am surrendered to the only wise God and Savior.
Humility is the acknowledgement of who I am in position to Him. I am His child who depends on Him for everything, even my ability to speak to Him. My ability to hear Him is because of Him.
This morning I was poor in spirit and my Father supplied me with what I needed. Himself.
Thank you for sharing, I needed this. ❤
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DeleteBeautiful. Condemnation is always so quick to the forefront. It's a wall to scale; but, perhaps humility is the door in the wall to go through into the grace of God through Jesus. May we see that door and not sit staring at the wall!
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DeleteThank you. Thank God for sending me to open arms!
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DeleteThank you for the wisdom insight, Jennifer. Your post reminded me how far God has brought me. I have been morning-challenged all my life. I struggled with getting up early to seek God. Even struggled to get to work on time. I just realized that I have been getting up every morning for devotion for over a year. Glory to God. I still struggled to get to work on time , but it's not due to pressing the snooze button. It's because I'm so deep in devotion. All praises to God!
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