I remain confident of this: I will see the goodness of the Lord
in the land of the living. Wait for the Lord; be strong and take heart and wait for the Lord.~Psalm 27:13-14
Yesterday, I began reading a great book by Priscilla Shirer called Life Interrupted ”. She connected her initial thinking and mindset about changes in life to Jonah. Jonah’s life was interrupted. He was called by God to go to Nineveh. Jonah did not want to go and tried to escape. He attempted to go the totally opposite direction and it took him being in the belly of a great fish before he came to his senses and repented ( Jonah 1:1-17).
Her connection to Jonah caused me to examine how I am responding to the interruptions in my life. To have an “ eternal perspective” on the small and big events that I have allowed to
“bump my happy”. I confess that way too often I am allowing my emotions to dictate my will rather than choosing His will to be my will.
Take the recent events on my job for an example. My first year on the job was great! I loved every minute. I had a clear purpose and was helping people. This year has been a different experience for me with lots of changes and uncertainty about my purpose and ability to help others. And while I have tried to walk in these circumstances with my chin up and attitude of praise, I have lacked true peace. The peace that only God can give me.
I have lacked this peace because ultimately I am waiting for things to go back to the way they were rather than waiting on God to do whatever He chooses to do. Sure I trust Him for daily strength and wisdom to navigate my day, but as soon as their is another change or wrinkle I’m back on the “woe is me” train.
Fo you it may not be issues on the job. It might be issues with relationships, slow trains or traffic jams, back biting “friends, grief over the loss of a loved one. It could be anything that changes the life you have planned for that day or the vision you se for your life.
For me, I know that I am tired of of letting my emotions steer the ship; steering me away from the truth that His will must be first. There is no coincidence in this life. If I am stalled in traffic, maybe God wants me to slow down and spend some time with Him. Or maybe He is telling me to leave the house earlier so I will have time to gather my thoughts before I start the day. Maybe that sink of dishes is to remind of how Jesus washes me everyday with grace and forgiveness.
If I loose this job and have to do something different I have to believe, not just know, but believe that it is because His plan is better. My season in that field is over and He wants me to bloom somewhere else. I have to stop seeing life as interruptions, but rather opportunities to see what God is going to do next. Instead of it being a hassle it is my blessing. I need an eternal view to survive and thrive in the present moments. I have to wait on Him.
As always, I need Jesus and I need to stay in the center of His will. This will require a sacrifice on my part. I made a vow to God when I gave my life to Him. I made a vow of surrender and obedience. I have said Yes! I have said I will go, it's not up to me to dictate the where or the path He decides for me to take to get there. Vows are sacred and I must keep mine because He definitely keeps His to me.
But I, with shouts of grateful praise will sacrifice to you.
What I have vowed I will make good. I will say, ‘Salvation comes from the Lord.’ (Jonah 2:9)
Yes, there is a cost to living a righteous life, but He already paid it all. So through Him I can do all things. I give up my need to feel okay for His peace that says I am more than okay.
Then I can walk in confidence knowing that my God is for me no matter what comes my way and I will see His goodness on this side of heaven and on the other with Him in eternity. I just have to learn to wait, to trust in Him.
Father, give me a birds eye view of life. I confess my vision has been to narrowed and my insecurities are driving me rather than me standing on a sure footed foundation of faith. Forgive me and let me walk in a better path. May my actions match my mindset and attitudes. May they be pleasing to You. Help me to keep my vows to You. In Jesus name. Amen.