Why not me?

He said, “Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked I shall return there.  The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.~Job 1:21

Why not me?  That is the question I ask myself whenever my mind begins to try and figure out why I am going through this trial.  Intellect wants to understand why, if I am living a life that seeks and honors God, would I have to deal with the tough stuff.  Why should I experience strife and suffering?  As soon as these thoughts present themselves, grace responds why not me?

I may not, in my little understanding, think I should have to struggle.  But as it often said, how would I know if I was strong, if I never had to wrestle? Better yet, how would I know just how amazing God is if I never had to be humble enough to see how limited I am and witness the unlimited power of God?

Why not me?  Why would I want to not understand that even in the pain and struggles that God is ever present.  Why would I not want to know for myself that I call Him Lord and yield to His will in every circumstance?  Why would I not want to be a platform where He is glorified and praised?

I don’t like to suffer.  I don’t like loss.  I don’t like pain.  But I will count it all joy if it draws me closer to Him.  If this rain waters the seeds in me that will produce shade for another then I say why not me?  

Father, everything I have is yours.  I desire nothing more than I desire You.  Thank You for revealing yourself in the midst of the storm.  Thank You for being my peace.  When my mind starts to question bring me back to a place of praise and trust.  May I be still and let You fight this battle for me.  In Jesus name. Amen