What’s next?

Do not be quick with your mouth, do not be hasty in your heart to utter anything before God. God is in heaven and you are on earth, so let your words be few.~Ecclesiastes 5:2

Boy, oh boy! Do I have some things to work on and some “new clothes” to put on.  Yesterday, God revealed to me just how naked I am before Him.  I laugh at how I was viewing myself, only just yesterday.  I felt put together and sharp.  I was moving with a confidence and then my “happy got bumped”.  The enemy decided to shoot a few arrows my way and he used my children to do it.  And just that quickly, it seems that all I have been learning and applying about the Word of God just went poof!  I was a hot Momma and the filter on my mouth was turned off and my heart revealed, frankly, some ugly and harsh realities about me and my thinking bubbles up.  

Sure once the explosion of my mouth occurred, I was able to see all the error of my ways.  You would have thought the first eruption was enough, but Satan has found a new button to press and so he played with me and I let him.  But God!  God is my grace, my saving grace.  

I laugh at the irony of the things that I was trying to get through to my adult children.  Here I was thinking that they are stubborn and unwilling to listen, but the one who really needed to hear and receive was me.   The real lesson was for me and  my Heavenly Father is the Master Teacher.

So now that my sins have been revealed and lesson is at my feet, what’s next? Do I crawl into a corner and cover my head in shame?  Do I accept the condemnation that enemy is seeking to dump on me after I have allowed him to toy with me? Nope, absolutely not!

What’s next is that I go to my Father and confess my sins.  I receive His grace and mercy as He cleanses me from all unrighteousness.  I rejoice in knowing that God has allowed me to a “blind spot” in my life and a root of bitterness that needs to be dug up and destroyed.  I rejoice in knowing that I once was naked, but now I am clothed in His love and forgiveness.  I steady my hands and strengthen my knees and ankles and I keep running this race.  I become even more intentional about the words I speak and thoughts I think.  I bring into captivity those things that seek to rise up against the truth of God. 

Oh, and that button, I am going to through the power of God render it ineffective.  I am going to place my confidence in God and understand that a pruning in my life is taking place.  I had some dirt on my face that I did not see and now I do.  I surrender my children into His loving care and pray before I speak.  I trust Him for the wisdom needed to help be a guide to them. What’s next is that my next step is in Him.

Father, I thank You for the conviction of your Spirit.  I thank You for your mercy and your grace and I ask for strength and wisdom as I deal with and turn away from the sins revealed.  May my regret be more than an emotional response, but of action as I apply the truth to my life.  You have broken the chain Lord, so now let me throw it off of me. And Father, may my words be few abs seasoned with your grace.  In Jesus name. Amen